When you think of childhood, you always imagine happiness, joy and laughter. Unfortunately it’s not always like that. Let’s introduce you to this little girl.

Her parents call her “Hey you“ or “Axi“. She didn‘t know if it was her real name but she got used to it.

Once she dared to ask her mother if she could have a little brother or sister but her mother, Carla, said: “Go away, you little monster; one accident in my life has been enough“.

So that‘s what she was; an accident‘. That explains why they called her Axi. She was pretty sure that she wasn‘t wanted and loved.

As a matter of fact, there was no love at all in her family. They were all very unhappy. Her parents were always discussing about money. They had that dream of being rich someday but that ‘someday‘ would never come if they continued being lazy. The only way they were able to speak was yelling and shouting.
It was quite normal that the girl felt that she wasn‘t really loved.

They had that dream of being rich someday but that ‘someday’ would never come if they continued being lazy. The only way they were able to speak was yelling and shouting. It was quite normal that the girl felt she wasn’t really loved.

Her father now and again came home with some fruit that he robbed from private gardens. They had something to eat and when he brought much fruit, she tried to sell it afterwards to the people who were walking in the park.
She was very unhappy; her parents always had loud discussions and often she couldn‘t sleep due to the shouting. It was always about money. At school she never could stay awake so she wasn‘t a very good student.

She was very unhappy. Her parents always had loud discussions and often she couldn’t sleep due to the shouting. It was always about money. At school she never could stay awake so she wasn’t a very good student.

Very young was she, when she took the decision that she always would try to have money; no matter how she got it. At home, she tried not to pay attention to her parents.
While in the park, she saw many happy people and she got very envious about their happiness. Why couldn‘t she be happy?

Many days she just didn‘t attend school and passed by houses to ring their doorbell and asked if she could do some shopping for them. That‘s how she earned her first money. You could always see her on the bike doing shopping for people.
It didn‘t help either when some of the people she did the shopping for, just said: ‘thank you, you‘re so good to help us‘ but they didn‘t give her any money.

Often she had to hide between the bushes in order not to be found by the police or the social inspectors for not going to school.

Many evenings, alone in her bed, she cried bitter tears. Why couldn‘t she be happy? She used to see families with some children at the seaside, having barbecue or walking in the park and she really felt terribly unhappy.

She was it who washed the dishes and cleaned the house. At a very young age she was able to prepare a very good meal.

Often she saw how her mother looked at herself in the mirror and she heard how she was saying to herself that she still looked good and could have a new start.

After that terrible discussion, she saw how her mother packed her clothes and she asked her where she was going to. Her mother just answered: “Go to hell, both of you; I don‘t want to continue living with the both of you“ and she went away. She never saw her since then.

The girl wasn‘t even sorry about it and she hardly saw her father.
She spent much time walking or biking or reading near the beach.

People saw her on the street and often asked her if she didn‘t have to go to school and she would answer them: “I cannot study on an empty stomach, if you could give me an ice-cream…”

A certain day a woman, bought her a meal at the bistro.

It was at the bistro, that she changed from a girl into a teenager.

She remembered that it was full moon when her father went away and she was all alone at home.

He had taken all the money (it was not that much) but anyway… she was left there with 0 simoleans.

She took the decission to go to school now. She felt relieved that she was alone and had no more need to fear her father‘s bad humor.

As she needed money, she offered her service in the household. She really was far too young for this kind of work. People knew that she was not allowed yet to work a full time job so they abused. They didn‘t give her enough money and the girl was very unhappy but she didn‘t want to show it. It didn’t leave her much time for school.

She decided then to work a few hours in the afternoon at the book shop. That was perfect for her. This way she had enough time for school and work. She even had time to work on her physical skills. No…, she wasn’t as lazy as her parents. She remembered this period as the happiest in her young life.

To be continued…