In the previous chapter:

– Cynthia had a vivid dream in which her late husband came to her in spirit and asked her to help Jeremy.

Thanks to all the artists of TSR for their wonderful work. Thanks to Simsjeanie for ‘Penelope’ and my special gratitude to Fredbrenny for her help.

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Next day, Cynthia was not very happy with this task that Raphael put on her shoulders but she tried not to think about it and concentrated on her house work.

Jane and Penelope had gone out for shopping but hadn’t found exactly what they were looking for so they decided they would go again next day.

Penelope invited her to her place and Jane loved the train wagon her girlfriend was living in. They were joking about having it repaired, and be able to go to other towns with it.
–  “Would you accompany me?” asked Penelope.
–  “Yes, if it only would be for a holiday, I would.” Jane already felt the adrenaline run through her body, just thinking of travelling.
–  “Well, we don’t need this wagon to travel. I have a car in which we can drive to… well… you name it…: Riverview? Barnacle Bay? Bridgeport? Twinbrooks?”

–  “Do you really mean that Penny?” asked Jane.
–  “Yes, why not?; my car is very fast and we can spend some time there. We always can stay in a hotel.”
Jane was very excited. “That would be cool. Just tell me when we can go.”
–  “Whenever you want. How about the day after tomorrow?” Penelope asked.
– “Great! That would be just fab! I’m going home now to tell my brother about it.”

–  “Why don’t you just call him? Look, it’s dark already; you can sleep here, I’ve got a spare bed. Then we can go shopping after breakfast!”
–  “Well, if you don’t mind…. I think that would be great! I’m so excited! I’m going to call him right away.”

Cynthia went to bed early that evening. She knew that Raphael would be waiting for her. The same moment that she closed he eyes, she found herself in the garden with Raphael.
–  “I still am not completely sure I can do this Raphael.”
–  “My love, you have to trust yourself as you trust me, and you should trust the light that’s inside Jeremy. He can’t find the balance between Heart and Mind by himself. You can help him to find that balance by working on his chakras. But… be careful, it will not be easy for you because he radiates a lot of ‘I-want-to-HAVE energy’ that works like a magnet on all women and that is the big obstacle in the way of his progress.”

Raphael saw how she started to doubt again. “Why haven’t you worked on his chakras yourself?”
He smiled: “Come on my dear; I’ve done what I could and I HAVE been working on his chakras. He receives a lot of energy through the one that is half opened, but he isn’t aware of it and hasn’t got the discipline to steer the energy. It goes where his thoughts wander. I was unable to act with him the way I acted with you. With you I was in my physical body. During his first stay on the island, he wasn’t ready for it yet. I think that his moment has come now and you are expected to help him. Don’t worry; I will be there to guide you.”

–  “Do you know everything about him?”
–  “Yes I do, my love. I was very relieved when he told Jane that he couldn’t give her real love. That saves her a lot of heart ache; she is meant for someone else who is very near already.”
–  “So… you are following Jeremy in his life?”
–  “Yes, he’s my pupil as well. I feel responsible for him. He was a young adult when he came to the Island and had his birthday there. It took me a long time before he became aware of my suggestions in his mind. You were a faster pupil than he is, but then…, we had physical contact.”

–  “I love you, Raphael.”
–  “I know you do my dearest one. I’m very proud of you and on how you raise the children. However you shouldn’t only have a spiritual love. Your body is important as well. I would really be very pleased to see you happy with someone you love. I’ve told you already that there are many people in the world and you may love them all when that love is pure.”
–  “Raphael, is it possible for you to kiss me?”
–  “Cynthia, believe me or not; being with you in dreams or in mind means that I’m kissing you in spirit. I can make you believe that I kiss you but it’s not the same as a physical kiss. Here I’ll show you”, and he kissed her. She felt like being lifted up into his light.

–  “What did you feel with this kiss?”
–  “It doesn’t feel the same as before. It gives me a shiny feeling in my heart and stomach. It’s a very special feeling.”
–  “Yes, but it doesn’t awaken lust, does it?”
–  “No, it’s not the same as when you were alive. How is that possible?”
–  “When I was alive, the spiritual energy mixed with my human energy and now that’s not possible anymore.
–  “I see, but wouldn’t you be jealous at all if I were to kiss another man?”

–  “Jealousy isn’t a proof of love.” Real love gives and doesn’t ask for anything in exchange. I’m with you in spirit and mind and I doubt that someone who experiences pleasure with your body and even gives you physical pleasure could be as intimate with you, as I am. Real intimacy is on a higher level than the physical. A body is only that: a body…! but while you have it, you should take care of it. Look!”

Then Cynthia found herself being lifted up and she was carried slowly on a wave of light to her bedroom where she saw her sleeping body. She didn’t see Raphael anymore. While floating over the bed she noticed that there was a soft light coming from… inside or around herself; she wasn’t sure. Then she observed the curtains that were slowly moving on the wind from the opened window. She saw the light of the Lighthouse slowly come and go and wondered if Jeremy had gone there already.

At that very same moment she found herself standing in the lighthouse looking at Jeremy’s sleeping body. Suddenly she understood the real meaning of the sentence ‘The energy follows the thoughts’. That had been said so often by Raphael and he had assured her of the importance of it.

She thought of her home and she was there again as a shining light looking at her own sleeping body.
This must be like dying; the body stays there and the energy goes elsewhere. This could be dangerous. She couldn’t leave her body without attending it. Then she felt drawn to her body and the moment she touched it, everything went black.

When Cynthia woke up the next morning, she remembered every single word spoken as well as the experience to see her sleeping body like an empty shell waiting for her to reanimate it. That day she had a lot to think about. She felt that she was privileged for having received this knowledge. She was aware that no words could ever convince as much as an experience of your own.

The children were in school and Cynthia went shopping. She bought enough groceries for at least a month. She felt like buying some new outfits as well.

While walking back home she saw Jane who, apparently, was having a good time with a redheaded young woman and she thought about what Raphael had said talking about Jane’s future. She was pleased to see that the girl was laughing and joking. Jane hadn’t even noticed that Cynthia was around.

In the afternoon while having dinner, she told the children that she would have to go to Lighthouse Island for some weeks but that Auntie Dawn would be staying with them during that time.
Risto accepted it right away and said: “Hurray, Auntie Dawn…, I love Auntie Dawn!” and he stood up to put his plate into the dishwasher.
Raph was more curious and he asked her why she had to go there. She told him that his father had asked her to help Jeremy Captain with certain things.

Then the boy looked at her new outfit and exclaimed: “Mom, don’t tell me that you are wearing that blouse when you go there!”
–  “What’s wrong with this blouse, Raph?”
–  “And you ask what’s wrong? I can look all the way down to your navel!” He blushed.
–  “What’s wrong with my navel?” She was laughing inside and understood that her boy became aware of certain differences between men and women.

He felt a bit annoyed but he didn’t know what to answer. Fortunately he was saved by his cell-phone. He answered and a girl’s voice said: “Hi Raph, it’s me…, Elvira. I’m bored and I thought that I might as well call you.”
–  “Hey, I don’t want to be considered as a cure for boredom.” He finished the phone call right away and felt ‘caught’ between his mother’s questioning look and the girl’s phone call.
–  “I’m going to the garden; no…, don’t worry; I won’t go far away.”

In the backyard there was someone unexpected. His friend Mattie stood there, watching the lighthouse. He approached him without speaking. There they stood together. Mattie said that he heard the Police brought Raph home last night.
–  “Yeah…; I still feel guilty that I forgot all about time. My mother was worried out of her mind.”

–  “At my place we were worried as well.” After a while Mattie added “I’m sorry Raph about not having talked to you before. I felt so guilty when I saw my mother crying and fainting that I thought that it would be selfish to pick up from the moment before I ran away. I wanted to punish myself but didn’t think about your feelings.” He stopped a moment and then continued: “My mother told me that I was mistaken and that we would forget this sooner by acting as we always did”.

–  “Don’t worry, Mat. I’m glad you’re back. I hope that girl, Elvira, will leave me alone now.” He told Mat all about what she had told him and it didn’t take long before the boys were laughing out loud over these silly girls.
–  “Hey, why don’t we go and play some ball?”

The boys ran out to a better place where they could play until it would be time to go home.

Both felt relieved to have each other’s company again.

When Raph came home, Cynthia noticed that her boy felt good. He looked happy and said: I”ve been playing with Mat.”  She embraced him and said: “I’m very glad for both of you that you made up.”

Shortly after the boy arrived home, Cynthia went to bed. When she fell asleep, Raphael wasn’t there and she had a quiet sleep.

Well, a quiet sleep until she had a very short dream; practically a flash. She stood in her back yard and exclaimed “Raphael! There’s much more light coming from you than yesterday!”
–  “That, my dear, is because I try to involve you in my light. I want you to go to the Lighthouse well prepared”, and he showed her the lighthouse without light.

– “The sight of the Lighthouse without Light is a symbolic sign that it’s your time to go there.”
–  “Do you mean right now?”
–  “Tomorrow afternoon will be soon enough.”
–  “Raphael, do you really think I can do this?”
–  “I know you can do it, my dear. I will be with you. I will go to the Lighthouse this very moment because Jeremy, most probably, is depressed because he cannot find what he expected on the island.”

Cynthia woke up with a shock and found herself sitting up-right on her bed. She felt cold and noticed she had goose bumps all over her body. She quickly dressed and went outside to see if it had been true.

There she saw it: Lighthouse Island without Light. That was something that never had happened as far as she knew. She went inside and to bed again.

She still would have about 4 hours before she would have to prepare the children for school. Soon she noticed that she was too restless. She dressed again and went outside. There she meditated near her husband’s tomb stone until the break of day.

To be continued…